Unbreak Me

Short Story

2010-06-24T10:46:00.001-07:00

Another roller coaster. That's what it was. Another roller coaster. They were always scary, but since when did they hurt this much? Emma felt her body being thrown around, but something around her waist was keeping her in place. Emma was afraid to open her eyes. She never opened her eyes on roller coasters. She hated them and heights. She even hated that sensation you get when your falling. This was different. Whatever it was, it hurt and she felt as if she was going in circles, upside down. Emma finally opened her eyes. She could see she was in the back of her parents car. She remembered they had been at Disney World all day, celebrating her parents anniversary, but they left before dinner to beat traffic. They had a few hours drive home. Emma remembered she was sitting in the back of the car, reading with her little traveling light. She remembered getting tired after stopping at a fast food place for dinner. She had been sitting in the middle and lay down to take a nap. She was exhausted from a fun, long day at the amusement park. She remembered having caramel apples and seeing the goofy characters in big costumes, and going into the gift shops. She got a Pocahontas t-shirt and that was the one thing she was most excited about. In her opinion, Pocahontas was the best princess because she was a strong, independent woman and fought her own battles. After reliving the best parts of her day, she had closed her eyes.One moment. In one moment, Emma had thought back on her last day, spent with her parents. In the next moment, Emma's temple hit the window and she thought no more.

Team Anna

2010-04-27T14:22:00.001-07:00

This is for all you Vampire Diaries lovers. I am totally with you on the whole rivalry between Team Stefan and Team Damon, I'm on Team Damon, but there is also one very special "other" vampire we must acknowledge. Anna-Bell is the very special vampire most people are starting to root for. I am rooting for her, too. Check out my polyvore profile and you can see it's mostly her.
http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?id=1332021
She is my idol. I even made a polyvore group in honor of her. She has such an amazing background. Wanting to be a normal kid but that all changed when she was turned. Then it was just her and her mother. And her mother was taken away from her. She spent nearly 200 years in search of a way to get her mother back. When she finally does, things begin to change. Her mother wants to be the one in control and she just wants to be with Jeremy. But things take a twist when Jeremy finds out what she really is and wants her to change him. Come to find out, he only wanted to change because of that stupid druggie Vicki. Poor Anna. But she jumps right back and her and Jer are kicking it off. In the "3 episodes left" preview you see them getting it on. This is so exciting. Anna is the right one for Jer and they are adorable together. I can't wait to see how it ends up. -TEAM ANNA

Forest

2010-02-25T18:16:00.000-08:00

Caw!
The young girl opens her eyes. She was lying on her back on the earth’s dirt. She looks up but all she sees is the tops of trees. She stood up and looked around. Huge tree’s was all she saw, in every direction. It was around twilight and it was a chilly night. She looked down at herself. She was wearing a lacy, black spaghetti strap dress that fell past her knees down to her feet. She had black, fingerless, lacy gloves and was wearing boots. Her long black hair was dirty from lying on the ground.
She was confused. Where was she and how had she gotten there? She tried to think back to the last thing she remembered before waking up but she didn’t remember anything. She didn’t even know her name. She was alone in the middle of a mysterious forest and had no way of knowing how to get out. She didn’t even know where to go even if she did find her way out.
Caw!
The girl jumped. In all the confusion she had forgotten what had woken her in the first place. She looked around, trying to find the raven making the noise. She didn’t see it anywhere, not even in the trees. This frightened her. She was in an unknown forest, alone, and she hadn’t even thought about the creatures that could be lurking the trees shadows.
She spotted an opening in the midst of the trees and walked toward it. She noticed an odd-looking path. It was odd because it seemed to be barely noticeable and hard to follow because it weaved in and out of the trees. She was praying that the path would lead her out when-
Caw!
The girl jumped again and looked in the direction she heard the raven. She still couldn’t spot it anywhere. She was beginning to feel anxious. She wanted to get out of there. As she is walking along the path, she can hear water flowing in a river. She follows the sound and comes to the river. The river was a nice, clear blue. Not the kind that you normally find that’s all muddy and filled with weeds. This was the water you expect to find on an island resort. She goes to the water, crouches down, and puts her hands in the water and cups it to her mouth. It was cold like the air and tasted wonderful.
Caw!
Startled, the girls hands fall to her sides as she stands back up. The girl turned - yet again - in the direction of the raven and – yet again – finds it nowhere to be seen. This was getting ridiculous. She was creeped out, but yet irritated at the same time. Leaving the unusually clean water she turns back to the path.
Back on the path, the girl shivers from the cold air. It was starting to get darker now. She was worried she would never find her way out. Looking ahead, she sees an old wooden fence. The gate is hanging from its hinges. Some of the small wooden boards were broken and it was faded and in some areas mold was beginning to grow. The girl carefully pushes the gate open and steps ahead.
Not so far ahead the girl spots what looks like an old beat-up, two-story house. She runs ahead hoping that inside she will find help. On closer inspection she notices it’s no house at all, but a shack. Once she was up to the house, she doesn’t bother knocking. She slowly pushes the door open and steps inside. The first thing she notices is that the place had been abandoned long ago. The furniture was covered with sheets and everything was dusty. She wanders the shack in search of a phone. She goes upstairs and looks in the master bedroom. Inside the room was a nice king-sized bed. All the furniture in the room was covered. The wooden floor creaked as she walked to the dresser. It had a mirror she could tell because the sheets went up above the dresser. She grabs the dusty sheet and pulls.
Caw!
At the exact moment the sheet went down over the mirror she saw the raven, but as soon as she gasped and turned around it was gone. It was nowhere in sight. At this point she was frightened. She was loosing it. She was cold, scared, lost, and the sun would be down at any moment. She turns and runs to the closet and grabs an old frilly jacket. She puts it on and rushes out of the house.
Back on that godforsaken path, the girl is beginning to panic. She is rushing along the path and from somewhere she could hear the raven cawing, as if it was mocking her. Tired, upset, and on the verge of hysteria she gives up. She runs to a nearby tree and slumps herself against it. She began to cry. She was so upset, she could hardly stand it.
Caw!
The girl gasps and looks up to see the raven sitting right in front of her, staring into her eyes.

The End.

A Very Potter Musical

2010-01-22T15:48:00.000-08:00

So I recently watched the musical A Very Potter Musical. I was laughing the entire time. Totally awesome. Loved it. The thing that got me was the character who played Draco Malfoy. It was a girl. Which made it all the more funny. Her name is Lauren Lopez. And she is great. She made the character all the more funny. She has only been in this musical along with Little White Lie. I haven't watched that yet but I will when I get around to it. She is also going to be starring in an upcoming film, Passenger Seat and has also been in The Spiral Project. I just thought I would mention her because I thought she was amazing and made the musical even better. Here is a video of some of her scenes from A Very Potter Musical... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pfm9rrCAdIg (I do not own) Hope you enjoy.

My Movie Reviews

2010-01-20T17:58:00.000-08:00

So I have been watching a lot of new movies online lately and I wanna give my reviews.

1. The Lovely Bones. A mixture of things. Sad, creepy, and fucked up, major. I have to say it was really good, though. The stalker guy in it did a great job of scaring the begeebies outta me. Total freak. The main girl in the movie that is murdered I have to say did an excellent job. She was great. Even though she's dead the entire movie, she is still in it a lot. And she was awesome. Great acting :)

2. Leap Year Really cute movie. I love Amy Adams and she was great. The movie was altogether good but not the best romantic comedy. They Ugly Truth is better (then again I might be biased from my love of Katherine Heigl and Gerard Butler but shhh.)

3. It's Complicated One of my favorite actress' Meryl Streep. Awesome comedy. Totally funny especially on some parts. Alec Baldwin and Steve Martin are old favorites to all of us. I especially like Baldwins voice. They both still got it!

4. Avatar I saw this one in the theater in 3d and it was excellent. Great visual effects and special effects. I even cried from it. The story line was a little too original, though. Anyone remember Pocahontas? Guy from a different culture (or in this case species) comes and ends up fighting for the opposing side from falling in love with the leaders daughter (how ironic). Something else I didn't like about the movie was they made the Marines look like the bad guys. Other than that it was pretty good. Plus, the main guy was hot. Who is this guy ;)

5. The Blind Side This movie was just completely adorable. I didn't cry but it was still really good. :)

6. New Moon I guess I might as well throw this in. Well, I am a Twilight fan but I still love to make fun of it. I only really liked the books and I didn't even really like the first book, Twilight. But my favorite book is New Moon. Not sure why but I think it has to do with the fact Jacob is in it a lot and I love him. :) The movie was ok. Hell of a lot better than Twilight. I blame Catherine Hardwicke for messing Twilight up. I hate that movie. She did good on Thirteen but not Twilight. Very disappointing. But New Moon overall was pretty good. I love Dakota Fanning in it, as well.

7. Law Abiding Citizen Well this isn't really new but it's new to me because I just watched it. I have to say 'bravo'. For one thing, Gerard Butler was amazing (as per usual) but I loved it altogether. The whole point Butler's character was trying to make was pretty true and I agree with him. I don't think he should have killed so many people, though. Just the two that killed his family. I agree with that shit completely. I cried just from watching it happen one minute into the movie. Loved it.

8. Paranormal Activity Ha. I saw this one in theaters when it came out. I loved it. It made me laugh and jump. The whole theater was screaming at the end. It was awesome. Totally amusing and entertaining.

9. 9 <-- (Lol) So I bought this movie, even though I had never seen it before. But it looked awesome so I figured 'Why not?'. Ha. Bad decision. Shoulda bought Paranormal Activity, at least I knew that was entertaining. 9 sucked. It wasn't that it was so bad but it just had no point to it. At all. The plot was just dumb because the outcome wouldn't change. I mean yeah it was cool looking and stuff with cool animation but it was just stupid. When it was over I was just like...ok? That's it? Wtf. Nothing happened. I was so disappointed.

10. The Ugly Truth When I first saw this movie in the theather, I loved it. I was really confused as to why the hell it got such bad reviews. Maybe it's cuz imma girl and it's a romantic comedy but I thought it was great. I love the main characters and I just loved it. :)

Well, that's all for now :)

Sophmore Year

2009-10-07T14:54:00.000-07:00

This year was supossed to be better. No more drama? Yeah, apparently when you move a grade up, the drama goes up right with you. I'm sick of it. These people are killin me. Things were supossed to be better this year but they seemed to have gotten worse. As much as I don't wanna be in it, I am. Some things I guess I bring on myself but I can't help it. I'm bipolar and I make mistakes just like the next girl. but now these past couple of weeks have just been...
I just wanna stop it all. I am just gonna avoid things from now on. I think everything works better if you just stay quiet. But thats just not how I was raised. I was raised to open my mouth and talk so the quiet type is just not who I am, especially with my friends. But now I am just gonna try harder. This stuff is giving me physical pain and I'm sick of it. So now, here's to trying harder.

Boot Camp

2009-09-28T17:51:00.000-07:00

I recently watched this movie. It's called Boot Camp and it has Mila Kunis in it. This movie was just amazing. I was blown away. It had everything in it. It had so much inspirational speaches and ugh it was just awesome. It is definatly going on my top list. It's about "A group of at-risk teens are sent to a what they think is a rehabilitation program on Fiji, but is really a prison-like camp where kids are abused and brainwashed." It's a thriller and you should just watch it! Totally amazing song from the movie..."Future Foe Scenarios" by Silversun Pickups. I'm obsessed.

Cellar Door - Escape The Fate

2009-08-29T13:08:00.000-07:00

We walk through the doorway

Heard you calling from the hall

To find you in the bedroom

Not breathing at all

I drag your body

To the cellar where we lay

The wax, it melts away

I kiss your face

Now we are starting to love you more

Your body's a canvas

I paint it on the floor

Now you wait, like the drug, like the change

And the pain, it goes on for so long

And oh, now it hurts in the worst way now that you're gone

It's so wrong

If I could take you somewhere

I'd take you to the darkest place

Scatter you in art forms

And wired hearts

Beauty in different ways

Your hands on picture frames
Your eyes on the glass

When your has a mask

Now they are staring to love you more

A gallery of your beauty

They'll charge at the door

As you wait, like the drug, like the change

And the pain it goes on for so long

And oh, now it hurts in the worst way now that your gone

It's so wrong

And down below

Your veins run dry, your vacant eyes

I lost control

Your face is pale, your body's cold

And down below, your veins run dry, your vacant eyes

I lost control

Your face is pale, your body's cold

(Your face is pale, your body's cold)

Wait, like the drug, like the change

And the pain it goes on for so long

And oh, now it hurts in the worst way now that your gone

It's so wrong...

This is a hero

2009-08-28T22:49:00.000-07:00

I've been reading on mylifeisg.com and all the posts are incredible. I have been on for over and hour reading and crying. They are all great posts and full of sadness or happiness.
Someone posted the following....
"Today, a man was being mugged. He was about to get shot. I jumped in front and took the bullet. I'm released from the hospital the man paid all my medical bills. He had two daughters. MyLifeIsG, his is more than G."
That is defiantly amazing. I cried when I read this, too because how many people do you know that would do something like this?
These stories on this site are inspiring and make me want to be better.
I'm glad I discovered the site. Knowing people go through such things make me feel immature for stressing over trivial things. We are all here to live our lives so make the best of it.

School

2009-08-25T12:23:00.000-07:00

Today was the first day of school. Our school is the total bottom of the food chain. We are B-R-O-K-E. Our school has shit. I fugging hate it there. I mean, last year we got a new principal and with her came new stupid rules. Actual dress codes. It's not like anyone dressed like a hoochy anyway but she makes it to wear we girls can't even wear skirts that are shorter than the above of our knee. Now this year she makes things worse. Now we can't have our iPods AT ALL and MORE NEW DRESS CODES. What the fug is she trying to do. It's bad enough our school sucks ass and we're broke but now we can't have our iPods and a new dress code. Soon we are all gonna end up in uniforms. I hate this town. I hate this school. I so want to move. I actually might do just that.

The Truth

2009-08-22T22:58:00.000-07:00

No one is perfect.
The world is an imperfect place.
Nothing is what it seems.
No one is what they seem.
Everyone has secrets.
Even the people closest to you.
Even family.
No one is what they seem.
Just leave it at that.

New School Year

2009-08-22T19:58:00.000-07:00

So I just wanted to say that I'm getting RED highlights the day before school starts and I'm excited major. I can't wait! I have strawberry-blond hair and in The Summoning the main girl does, too. And in it she says that someone told her that red highlights in strawberry-blond hair goes good and I was planning on doing red, just wasn't sure. But I so don't care. I really want them and red is my favorite color. This new school year is gonna be different. I'm gonna have a whole new look. I'm even painting my room red and I am totally excited about that, too. This school year, I plan to just self actualize and I will not care what people think of me and I will just be my sarcastic self. No more silly high school drama. I want to focus on my studies and try to do my best and not let people get in my way. I will help my friends with anything they need and ignore the people who have hurt me in the past. I'll do what I want and do my best. And I especially look forward to reading a lot, instead of sitting in the "cave" (as my step-dad likes to call it) watching T.V. and doing things online. I will try to be better this school year. A better student, friend, daughter, and sister. Here's to the new school year.

Time Heals Everything

2009-08-13T20:21:00.001-07:00

You know that saying "Time Heals Everything"?
Well, it's not true.
Some things just aren't able to be healed.
This saying *may* be true for some things.
But most of those things are just because you forget them over time.
Most things can't be healed, even when they happened years before.
What happens over time isn't healed.
It's either forgotten or just learned to live with and live around it.
Nothing can be fully healed.

Jeanine Mason - So You Think You Can Dance Winner

2009-08-11T18:21:00.000-07:00

I normally don't watch "So You Think You Can Dance" but while I was in Cali, since my aunt only has basic cable, we ended up watching an episode. It was the episode where Ellen guest-judged. I love Ellen so we thought we'd watch it. Boy, am I glad. Turns out that was a memorable episode. The tribute to breast cancer dance preformed by Melissa Sandvig and Ade Obayomi was aired on that episode. The dance had everybody in the house crying. It was an emotional dance and was done really well. Jeanine Mason and Brandon Bryant preformed an aggresive dance to the song "Battlefield" by Jordin Sparks and I loved it. It was totally amazing and VERY well done. I was so happy to hear that Jeanine won! I only watched one episode and I loved her dancing. Absolutely amazing and I still watch the video from time to time. You can watch it at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V33dw5IfVP4. I also watched other videos of her dancing and she is just such a great dancer. I am very happy for her.

"We Read To Know We Are Not Alone" - C.S. Lewis

2009-08-10T21:05:00.000-07:00

I love to read. Simple as that but I'm not the type of person who can pick up any book and read it and enjoy. It has to be fantasy/fiction because that's about all I like. My favorite series now are The Vampire Diaries and The House of Night Novels in that order. I love reading books like that but I hate reading boring books. Aka "educational" books. I love fantasy fiction because reading is *My* muse. Just like when people get angry or upset they drink, listen to music, dance, etc. Its my thing that makes me forget everything and get sucked into my own place. Because the books I read make me forget this world, escape, and think for just that long that we live in a fantasy world where everything is magical and believing in magic and something more. You can tell just by watching me read how much I love it. I laugh a lot and even cry a lot because I get so into it. Its the one thing that makes me escape this world. These books inspire me. People may think I have a great life and get everything I want and I'm just bitching but I've been through stuff, too. I know its not the same as others but that's just it. *I* have a semi-normal life but that doesn't mean that I'm unaware of the things other people go through. Things that terrible people do. I love to read. It helps me cope. "We read to know we are not alone" has a lot of meanings to me and it has to be one of my favorite quotes because I can relate.

My Role Model

2009-08-08T20:44:00.000-07:00

So my role model has to be my Uncle Rudy. I just realized it today. I never really had a role model. I always used to say it was my parents cuz thats what most ppl say. Well I realized its not them. Don't get me wrong I love them and all but they aren't like my uncle. I actually look up to him most of all. He just inspires me. I don't know what it is but when he talks to me, it always gets through and I hear him. It might have something to with the fact that when he talks to me he doesn't tell me what to do and doesn't get mad. He just talks and I listen.
Everything he says I like. He was the one who talked to me about my dad. After that I forgave my dad bc he's been through a lot of shit that I never even thought about. And Rudy did that without even trying. I really appreciate my uncle and his style. He is independant and does what he wants when he wants. And I look up to that. He has his morals and I agree with them.
People blame the way they turn out on their parents. That's just fucking retarded. You may grow up with a dad that took off or an abusive parent, but what you choose to do about it is your problem. Don't blame it on the parents. Dad takes off? Ok, happens all the time. But its what you choose to do after is what matters. You can choose to sulk and blame all your misfortunes on them or you can choose to do what they didn't do. And choose not to be like them. It's up to you and that really kills me when someone blames shit on having a crappy childhood. Everything *you* do is *your* choice. That's just a lil sample of something we talked about but I elaborated a lot on it.

Memories

2009-06-18T22:56:00.000-07:00

Sometimes memories eat people alive.

You had someone and they were taken away from you.

There are so many ways memories can give you the worst unbearable pain.

Memories with the one you loved....

Until the worst happens....

They move, die, leave you, have to leave you, want to leave you, are just taken away from you....

You cry yourself to sleep thinking of them and how you wish they were with you, wondering why?

Why did they have to go?

Why were they taken away from you?

You want to hide your pain from the people you love not wanting them to know just how much your hurting.

How the pain just seems to keep getting worse.

You wish you could just go back to the times where everything you did was so care free.

You want to go back and stay in the past....

Not wanting to be here now....

Wanting nothing more than to be with them again....

"All of my memories keep you near.

In silent moments,

Imagine you being here.

All of my memories keep you near....

In silent whispers, silent tears"

-Painful but true lyrics in Memories by Within Temptation.

Alcohol vs. Cigarettes vs. Marijuana

2009-06-17T00:06:00.000-07:00

I have something to say about marijuana being illegal.

In my opinion it should be legal.

Cigarettes are legal.

They damage your lungs.

They are clearly worse than marijuana.

What does marijuana do?

Honestly, give you a feeling that just feels...good.

Your worries drop and whatnot.

And yes it does effect your judgement.

But

Its better than smoking cigarettes.

Its better than alcohol.

Alcohol gets you drunk off your ass and *one*

beer can damage your judgement bad enough to get in a car accident.

It messes you up.

Its bad for your liver and many other things.

But yet that is legal.

Sure you can't drink and drive.

But why can't they make that the law with marijuana?

It messes up your judgement too.

No drinking and driving.

No *smoking* and driving is what it should be.

Alcohol is legal to those who are 21+ as long as your not driving.

Smoking is only legal to be sold to 18+.

Does that mean you can't smoke it if your 13?

NO.

Marijuana has a better effect on people than cigarettes and alcohol but its illegal.